Saturday, January 28, 2012

@ Tim Thomas: I Salute You Good Sir!

Tim Thomas was the only Boston Bruins player from their 2011 Stanley Cup championship team that chose not to attend a White House celebration of their achievement. Cam Neely, the Bruins' team president, cited Thomas's "own opinions and political beliefs" for that absence.

On the official Facebook page for Tim Thomas — his other page is for his hockey camps — the Bruins goalie and playoff MVP clarified his absence from the White House event:

"I believe the Federal government has grown out of control, threatening the Rights, Liberties, and Property of the People.

"This is being done at the Executive, Legislative, and Judicial level. This is in direct opposition to the Constitution and the Founding Fathers vision for the Federal government.

"Because I believe this, today I exercised my right as a Free Citizen, and did not visit the White House. This was not about politics or party, as in my opinion both parties are responsible for the situation we are in as a country. This was about a choice I had to make as an INDIVIDUAL.

"This is the only public statement I will be making on this topic. TT"

Something tells me that with Thomas slated to appear in the 2011 NHL All-Star Game this weekend, this might not be the only public statement he'll make on this controversy. It's overshadowed the Bruins' visit to the White House. It'll likely do the same for Thomas's participation in the midseason classic.

"As an organization we were honored by President Obama's invitation to the White House. It was a great day and a perfect way to cap our team's achievement from last season. It was a day that none of us will soon forget. We are disappointed that Tim chose not to join us, and his views certainly do not reflect those of the Jacobs family or the Bruins organization. This will be the last public comment from the Bruins organization on this subject."

Above is the article that I find to be amazing! The green is the statement that Tim Thomas has made on his Facebook page. I cannot applaud him enough! AWESOME! 

The goldenrod / burnt orange is the "Bruins" official statement... It is fucking pathetic how the people in charge will still kiss the ass of the Muzlem in charge! That bothers me! VERY much!






NObama Unifies Dems? Huh?

There was an article on how NObama is bringing Democrats together... and your point would be?

I will admit that I did not read the entire article! At this point NObama's very existence bothers me! So, I wrote this in reply to the article, I was seriously surprised at the 16 thumbs up I got! LOL!

STOP the companies outsourcing of OUR jobs! Stop exporting resources we use and need here! STOP BORROWING FROM CHINA!

NObama has done nothing to better our lives as Americans! He has done leaps and bounds for his Muzlem Brothers! Not too much for anyone else! I am saddened that he will still be remembered as the first Black President! Regardless of the crap he has done, and lack of change he has brought!

I am happy knowing that he will soon be ending his 1 term presidency!

Ron Paul 2012!


I was treated to a discussion that I plan on continuing, the user: GP started to comment...

GP:
Libertarians believe in open borders and free trade... I think you have your candidates mixed up!

Mindful:
@ GP: I am not a political person. I am for the American people! I am an American! I was born and raised here on American soil! I personally do not care what side does what, I am concerned with the fact that the government as a whole, not either side is to blame! The entire collection of the politicians in my opinion have, are, and will continue to fail us! They are doing what is best for them and their bottom lines! They could not care less about us! My posting is not about Libs, Dems, Reps, it is about all of them as a collective! I love my country! I live in fear of the government! I DESPISE those who run the show!

GP:
You don't have to live in fear of the government. That's populist nonsense. The government is plagued with apathy, inefficiency and bloat just like the private sector. It is too big, yes but inertia is a strong force. The real problem is that very same inertia. None of the candidates have a real plan to reign in the size of government on any level. This notion of the private sector being the answer to everything is folly because they are 1/3 of the problem. We the People are another third...

Mindful:
@ GP: First I want you to know I did not give the thumbs down. I see your point and while I see where you angle is, I still harbor a different opinion. I will elaborate on my thoughts later when I have more time. I am enjoying this! A conversation with points discussed and no nerd raging! I LIKE THAT!



Saturday, January 21, 2012

Deeper in My (S)hell...

If suicide is not illegal, and we have an issue with over population as it is... why do law enforcement take you a "facility" to be monitored and evaluated after you fail an attempt? Would it not be more logical to let you try again, or given the outcome of your attempt you could sign a waiver and let them finish the job!

If you are ONLY trying to kill yourself, I am not sure I understand that logic! If you are not using or planning methods that will hurt anyone else, then... hell MORE power to you!

Too many people alive today! We are burning thru resources like they are going out of style and still people are encouraged to live longer, and longer... Do more to stay alive? Really?

I find it funny how they say that there are so many programs out there to help people in need! There are! That is not a lie! However, you have to fit into one of 3 categories... Insured & Covered, No Insurance & No Money, or No Insurance but you make too much to get help! Not enough to live but too much for help...

Me? I am in the 3rd one... I am further down in this cycle than I have ever been in my life! People rant and rave at me, and I do nothing. I stoop lower and lower. Then people do not take into account the physical and emotional effects of this mental situation I am in. No one cares what I am feeling! They only see what THEY want to see! They do not understand or comprehend the level of hell I am walking thru, just to struggle further and hurt more.

There are no plans out there for me. Even if there were, I would not take advantage of them... Not out of pride, not out of finances... Out of fear! Plain and simple! I am mortified that I would never be allowed another breath of fresh and free air.

People collect disability for being depressed. I am not a leech! I work for what I have, I work to provide, I work to earn. Maybe if I work harder, so will my body and nature will take its course... Then my thinking on this topic is pointless! Probably is anyhow. Nothing I do seems to be worth anything to anyone, if it ever was...

Friday, January 20, 2012

Wearing a Dark Suit...

Working where I do... I feel like I urinating on myself while wearing a dark colored suit! When I do something good, yes I do get a warm feeling, but no one notices or cares! Today I wrote myself an email... I have changed the names to protect the innocent as well as totally retarded!

Funny event of the day...

A maple co-worker asked me this past Wednesday to edit the Employee Form for the company web site that Employees fill out... Easy mode, one would think...

I was talking to my boss, who I will rename: Sphincter-Boy earlier today about NOT making it in CGI which is what they have everything else written in! This prompted me to ask why it is that way?

He said: "That is what the guy who we paid to make the site did everything in about a dozen or so years ago..."

(*Note to self - Sphincter-Boy brags to anyone who listens about how HE wrote the entire site in only a couple days!*)

I told him that there are better, and more edit friendly languages out there! HTML, PHP, CSS, Java... He told me that anything we can do to get away from the CGI would be great! I then explained to him how letting  me remake the entire forn in HTML would be quicker and easier than trying to figure out how to do the same thing in CGI, and reworking and rewording the 3 files associated with that one form... CGI is a language that is NOT used and or taught anymore! ! 

The Day Moves on...

A short time later and  he asked me how the editing of the form was going, I told him that it is going just fine and I am almost ½ of the way done! He then asked how I was going to have it submitted, I explain that I was going to program the "Submit" button to use the mail-to function... Then I told him that the entire form is being written in HTML. He looked SO confused! I asked if he would like to see how it looked. He told me that he rather not due to how busy he is... Then he got this look on his face... 

This bread-damage retarded monkey looked at me like I just donkey kicked him in the nuts! That is when he angrily dialed the phone and called his "Partner" I do not mean that in the relationship sense, more in the meaning of them being co-owners of the company I am a door mat for! 

However, I can honestly say that they do act like a married couple! These men have been in business for over 40 years... One is the bitch and the other is the definite dominant, the one with the penis! That is metaphorical! I am assuming that they both have one... 

Moving on... 

That is when he asked Sphincter-Boy tattles on me about the security of HTML vs. that of CGI. Dick, the penis holder of the 2, told him that the CGI forms will verify info that is input into them! If a submitted variable has to be within a range of acceptable answers and what not... However if the form if accepted, it is SENT VIA MAIL-TO function! No different than what I am doing!

Then Sphincter-Boy tells Dick: "I told D. Mat to do this as CGI as normal, then we will try to get away from CGi later on..." 

I spoke up and told him verbatim what he said to me... About how I was given the green light to use the HTML format and get it knocked out quick, fast, and clean!

Sphincter-Boy turns to me sternly corrected me and gave a VERY nasty and disgusted look! Then he repeated himself!

Dick consented my going forward in HTML on this project! (Win for me... Sort of...)

Another instance of how Sphincter-Boy lies to only cover his OWN ass and throw ANYONE else in front of the bus as often as possible! 

This is the same man who brags about OWNING the company, who tells me what I need to do to be a better father, husband, and Christian... The same man will dance on my bruised back while I am still parked under the bus...

Now, at this very moment... He is sitting about 4.5 feet from me, picking his teeth with his finger nails and sucking on his fingers... This is what I have to put up with... ALL THE TIME! This is what I have tolerated for years! There are MANY other instances that I have been too scared to put into writing for fear of repercussions... No matter what happens at this point, I DO NOT CARE! 

I HATE THEM! 

Dick and Sphincter-Boy!







Thursday, January 19, 2012

Grab KY! It is Tax Season...

Dear IRS:

I would like to cancel my subscription! Please remove my name and address from your mailing lists! Thank you for your cooperation and attention in this matter!





Sincerely:

The American Tax Payer...

P.S.
I do not remember agreeing to send Americans to die in other countries fighting wars that are not ours. I do not remember authorizing the spending of $14 trillion dollars into the negative! My bank cuts me off after $300 in to the negative, how is it that your account is that well vested?

I do not understand how it is that we owe China money! I am trying to do my best at raising my children and I teach them about freedoms, and how America is the greatest country in the world! What kind of hypocrite am I when I say this and we owe billions to a communist country?

P.P.S.
At no point did I agree to fund moozlum militants!

At no junction in time did I sign a contract allowing you to take away the freedoms that American men and women are sent to die for... I understand that song, freedom is not free... However, if you are planning on continuing to bend me over every 2 weeks when I get my disappointment, I mean paycheck... I would LIKE very much so, to have some say in where all the money I pay in is going! If this cannot be arranged, I see no reason to continue to support you either!

I love my country, I fear my government, and I hate those who cannot understand what a negative balance is! Especially a $14 trillion dollar negative balance!

Nothing will change... I only see it getting further and further into the bad... Then at the point of no return, everyone will stand up and say: "W-T-F happened?! How did we let it get this way!?"

The blind sheep will see that lack of actions now, have doomed us later!

Night-Night! Sleep tight, don't let the suicide bombers bite...



Wednesday, January 18, 2012

More Sad Than Funny...

I look around at certain things... I am currently more depressed at this very moment and have been getting worse over the last several months. I look back at my nagging want to die. My meaningless efforts at that very thing! Hell, I was BORN dead according to some... Why could I have no stayed that way? What have I done in my 35 year existence that was worth saving?

I ruined my wife's life... I brought her here. I took her away from her family.

I have brought 3 children into this world. 1, I have not seen in 8 years. 2 that will suffer through life, LONG after I am a worm farm...

I have racked up almost $100K in student loans... 14 years I have been in school! After dropping out of high school, I obtained my G.E.D. = Good Enough Diploma... 14 years I have struggled through one school to another to another in efforts of getting a SINGLE degree! Yes, I am serious! I have spent over a decade in effort to hold a piece of paper...

Trying to think... I have done nothing to better the world in any way shape or form, and yet still I am here... Using up resources, and wasting oxygen, filling up space and statistics...

I am reminded of a line in one of my favorite movies...

Life is cruel! Anyone who tells you different is trying to sell you something!

When I try to talk to people, I apparently upset them. People at work see me, and they see how sluggish I am, or worn out I look... I was told last Wednesday that I looked like death warmed over... NICE!

So I turn to writing. Even in the written word only certain things are permitted as to not offend or upset others... Funny how there are companies and clubs, whatever who are fighting to keep the internet free from censorship and yet I am forced to live it, every day of my life.

funny...

Monday, January 16, 2012

Vitamin D: The Natural Happy Pill


Another Yahoo! article that I felt compelled to talk about... Another article where they are acting as if they have no idea the reason or cause of an illness... Vitamin D elevates your mood, eases joint pains and many other useful things! The most natural source of this vitamin is the reaction your skin has when in contact with sun light... Now, I am one who does suffer from of number of "clinical diagnosis" and I am stuck living in a place for the time being that the sun is NOT a very heavy or abundant commodity! I have to say that this article is far fetched at best! 

This article is taking the approach that they are still unsure... REALLY!? How much more sure do you need to be!? 

I am convinced there is a cure for cancer! I am not going to be told or convinced that AIDS is not man made... Think about it though! Think hard! If they were  to announce the cure for cancer and or AIDS, the world economy would be totally FUCKED! End of story! Look at all of the research, fund raising, research, testing, all the jobs that would be lost! Millions of people out of work! TRILLIONS of dollars lost in the first month alone! 

Looking in to the medical field, the medicines I was once on are extremely expensive! One month of my medications with no insurance costs me $2200... Now, looking at the EXACT same medication and dose are being sold in China by OUR drug companies! The research we pay for is giving it away over seas! Even after the monetary conversion, my meds that catch $2200 from me a month, are sold in China for just about $19 American... LOVE IT! 


However, more to the point of this post! The article can be found here...


The article says that it is unclear what happens first, the depression or the deficiency... I will bet anything or any amount of money that it is the lack of vitamin D that is a very heavy contributing factor! They are putting it in this article along the lines of what came first, the chicken or the egg?

Here is my take on it... What happens first? Are you hungry, or do you eat? Most of us are going to eat cause our body is telling us we are hungry! (I am a heavy guy, so please do not think I am picking on or singling anyone out!) I am just saying it is as simple as cause and effect and these "researchers" are making a mountain out of a mole-hill!

If there is a lack of Vitamin D, depression is soon to follow! Looking at how your body processes Vitamin D, it is needed for mood stabilization in the brain to produce the chemicals to combat depression! Now, in almost any American especially today the average stress level coupled with that lack of Vitamin D is going to wreak havoc! What is so hard to understand!? 

This is a cut and dry case, that they need to continue to looking, and studying to get more funds! Why!? Problem solved! Do things to introduce MORE Vitamin D into their daily routines! There are supplements! There are full-spectrum bulbs available at most chain hardware stores and or online! For those who do not know what a Full Spectrum Bulb is, no worries, I had no idea till recently myself. They are a bulb that you use for light like any other... They actually produce light that is rich in Vitamin D. As if you were out in the sun on a shiny summer day! They are a bit pricey, but what is worse? $6-$10 a bulb? Or Shrinks, Meds, and torturing those around you?

Trust me, I speak from experience! I have suffered from severe depression and a few other very nasty diagnoses...


Free Kool-Aid! Just Follow, Don't Ask!

As I have mentioned, I am trying to write again! It is a very slow process! I am torn between work, my family, my game and trying to be creative! I have to again applaud my English teacher from last Semester! He referred to himself as: Dawson, and that is all the more I will describe him as... however, he said that writing in journals, diaries, or even blogging is not gay, not stupid, and by no means is it pointless! 

I explained to him how I had fallen under ridicule of some of my friends and peers for my new found creative outlet... That is when he said the most awesome thing to me! He said: "Dude, you have to let the poison out sometime!"

I have not found too many other sites that I can read and comment on articles and reply to other people's thinking and challenge them and in turn be challenged! This and the other 63 posts I have done is me letting out the poison and to be quite frank, I am challenging everyone that reads my posts! 

The challenges are a 2 way street if not more than! If you agree with me? Please tell me why! No one on Earth falls inline with my thinking and or mental instabilities! If you do, wow... Sorry bout your luck! 

This is another bloodletting of another Yahoo! article... The article is here...here...

Below are the comments I made that started a few thrashings at me!

(Original Comment): 

Mindful:
YAY! More kool-aid! Where do I get in line? The crap that they spoon feed the blindly following sheep! Most of the people reading this probably believe we landed on the moon... Good luck with that!

Little Red Ridinghood:
You have no mind. How can you be mindful. The lunatic part you have right. But the rest shows how smart you really are. Dumb #$%$
 
Mindful:
@ Lil Red: I am not a dumb a*s... Just to clarify. I have an I.Q. that has been tested 4 times in my life. The most recent was when I was 32 years old. I am now 35... So, looking at that most recent testing, I scored 129 points, just so you are aware, 140 is genius. I think I am doing really well! I have taught myself how to write 5 scripting languages and I am working on 6 and 7 now. I am currently working as an I.T. / Networking Technician for a very well known airline. Again in reply to your accusation, no I am not.

If you would pull your head out of your rectum and look at the evidence that is staggering and overwhelming in every degree that they have debunking the theory we visited the moon, you would have a better view of things, and not to mention your breath would greatly improve!

Now, here is something you may also not be aware of... I will not bow to you and or anyone else's way of thinking! I fit into no molds or line... I am an individual who thinks for myself and will always seek reason not faith! OK? So, when I say what I did, I stand by it!

The facts of this story are beyond comprehension! There were other stories a few months ago about how a Telescope housed on Earth can see 13 Billion light years away! You have any idea how many miles that is? Light years is NOT TIME! It is a measure of DISTANCE!

Here is the math on that since you are probably too stupid or lazy to do it yourself!

Speed of Light = 186,000 miles per second

60 seconds per minute

60 minutes per hour

24 hours a day

365.25 days per year

1 Light year =  5,869,713,600,000

Now, multiply that by 13 Billion =  76,306,276,800,000,000,000,000

That is how far they claim that they can see into space… I refuse to believe that! You are probably laughing at me for the 365.25 days in the calendar year right? An Earth day is actually 23 hours and 56 minutes! Early on in time they decided 24 hours was easier to track and maintain… That is why we have lead year once every 4 years! There is an additional .25 or ¼ of a day at the end of a year… 4 years x .25 = 1 whole day… And you are calling me the dumb ass? Really?


Melisa:
do you believe in god? if so you are the true sheep.

Mindful:
@Melisa: I believe what I find comfort in. I do NOT believe in any one religion! I believe in a lot of things and when I start to tell people what I do believe, I have actually had people get up and walk away and I have the more extreme where some have actually assaulted me! I do not get into my thoughts on the public stage any more. Too many idiots!



The funny thing is, after I posted these comments I still got thumbs up and a few more down... NO more comments. Funny how people will swing at and attack those who they feel will not fight back... You swing at me, you will get a shot or three in...Swing enough times, you will pull back a bloody stump! 



Thursday, January 12, 2012

Dear Senator Portman...

Today, I was once again treated to another soliciting email from a senator. I hate the majority of people, I am able to say that with extreme ease. Too often today no matter who they are, gender, race, religion, etc. people in general are fucking morons!

The people I hate more than anyone alive or dead are politicians! The human race by nature is a self serving species! Take care of #1! You hear that a lot! I follow that advice all the time! My #1 is my family however. They come first and foremost in my life. So, when it comes to their needs and if applicable wants, they are met before my own or anyone else's!

Serving oneself and or one's family is a natural thing, natural idea! There are the majority today where they serve themselves first and foremost and they are not afraid to use their family to get it! Too many people today see a fatter check for popping out more babies! Some people suffer from Munchhausen Disease, that is using your kids or family to the sickest degree! 

Getting back on track and to my point, politicians of any level and or degree are self serving to a new level! They will sleep sound every night knowing that the bottom lines of their bank statements keep on growing and growing. These men and women support the causes that will better their own platform! I get sick and tired of watching these people with no reservations on sending trillions of OUR dollars paid in taxes to other countries!

They spent $1.2 trillion trying to fight a war that did not exist! We were watching 9/11 on TV and on 9/12 they were dancing in the streets and burning our flags! Then years later they needed our help and who do they call collect? Yes, called us for help and made us pay for the phone call!

The government sends our men and women to die on foreign soil in wars that we fund and are NOT OURS! These politicians again sleep peacefully knowing that the wars being waged are miles and miles away and they lay there in their comfort lining their pockets with money soaked in blood of American Soldiers!

So, with this being an election year, I am already sick and tired of the shit-slinging that is sure to ensue! When I got the soliciting email from Senator Portman, I again unsubscribed! Yes, I said AGAIN! I have unregistered my main email account 3 times! However, I unsubscribed again and it took me to his page. There, I saw a "Contact" link... I did! I wrote the good old senator and I gave him some insight to an average American tax payer's mind!

Dear Sen. Portman:

I am a proud American! I am very grateful for my freedoms that the Government is sworn to protect and uphold. Those very same freedoms that people like yourself are now taking from me and the rest of us!

I get sick and tired of getting political solicitation in my email, mailbox, and seeing it plastered all over every sign I pass!

I hate the politics here! How are we supposed to defend capitalism when we owe China the largest communist country in the world, $1.2 billion?

I laugh at the political campaigns you people have! I think it is absolutely absurd! It is not a race of what you are planning to do! It is a dig fest! You and your supporters stand there on a platform being holier than thou and showing how you would NEVER do the things your opponent has done or supports!

I LOVE my country! I thank every single military man and woman when I see them in public! I refuse to vote! I refuse to support ANY of you crooks! Why should I pay you to do nothing!? I am supporting millions of welfare recipients as it is! Even more depressing is that needing assistance myself I am entitled to NOTHING!

So to you and all your other friends and foes... I hate American Politicians! I hate the whole lot of them! You people have no clue how to do anything right! Anything that makes sense or would help We the People is an idea that seems to be punishable by death!

I will support my fellow Americans! I refuse to cross the street to help a politician stand up after getting hit by a falling piano...

You politicians spend trillions of tax dollars over seas helping these foreigners who want us dead. You send aid and rebuild their houses and building only for them to destroy them again! BUILD HERE! Keep our MEDICINES HERE! I have not been to a doctor in over 2 years due to lack of insurance! My medications are $2200 a month without insurance... In China, $13 American AFTER conversion!

Sorry to say this... However that is bullshit! I am AMERICAN by birth and choice! So are the majority of the people in office! ACT LIKE IT!